Xiao Xingchen deserves the world! Any world! The universe and all the stars in the sky! Xue Yang knows he isn't worthy to have him, but like hell is he going to let go without a fight. In this case, showing Xingchen his best self is his defense. But it also comes naturally. His poor Daozhang deserves to be loved.

"Careful." he rubs over Xingchen's back as if he senses the dizziness, "With a little food in you, you'll feel better, I promise. Your body doesn't have what it needs, that's all."

And he remembers some of Xingchen's favorite foods. He'll order them for him.

"What do you mean? You helped me plenty before. I..." now it's his turn to flush, "I know I deserve what happened to me, Daozhang. I tried to...argue away my guilt, but..." he grits his teeth, "I'm covered in blood. I'm a bad person. But I think loving you makes me better."