[ as soon as till is shifting, ivan is picking his head up, watching him. has he had enough? is till coming back to his senses, wondering what he's doing, leaning on ivan like this?
ivan voices none of those questions.
with the way his mindset is currently, the repositioning of till's knees comes across as till trying to leave. that's what ivan is used to, anyway. ]
Are you done? [ ivan's tone is even— it's just a question, and there's nothing tinting it, not annoyance, or anything else. it's just that ivan can't process any of this while till is still here. he may yet find out that even when till is away from him, it'll be a struggle. for someone who developed their emotional intelligence late, and is still working on it... adding information to the mix that ivan was so sure was the opposite is a lot. it's years' worth of "a lot."
just wanting to escape and be by himself versus the desire to sit here with till, his vomit halfway down the hallway, is overwhelming on its own.]
no subject
ivan voices none of those questions.
with the way his mindset is currently, the repositioning of till's knees comes across as till trying to leave. that's what ivan is used to, anyway. ]
Are you done? [ ivan's tone is even— it's just a question, and there's nothing tinting it, not annoyance, or anything else. it's just that ivan can't process any of this while till is still here. he may yet find out that even when till is away from him, it'll be a struggle. for someone who developed their emotional intelligence late, and is still working on it... adding information to the mix that ivan was so sure was the opposite is a lot. it's years' worth of "a lot."
just wanting to escape and be by himself versus the desire to sit here with till, his vomit halfway down the hallway, is overwhelming on its own.]