[petulantly, Till lifts his head, sniffling angrily in Ivan’s direction.
he’s right, but it’s different!!]
…Yeah, well, I didn’t do anything crazy.
[nevermind that Ivan probably had to; had to do something more grabbing than a cop-out forfeit to take the attention off Till. he can’t make Ivan understand how batshit traumatizing it was, but he supposes there’s no real point. he feels a little better having smacked Ivan for it, which is counter-intuitive to how he doesn’t want Ivan to leave him alone. he’s—scared, kind of. more than he is relieved.
Ivan had made good TV, though—they broadcasted his face in max resolution behind Till as he struggled to perform. but going so far as to say something so venomous would be pointlessly punishing to Ivan.
all Till can really do, he guess, is process that Ivan’s hear. the lower half of his face is obscured by his arms, but he stares over them to Ivan, tears streaming down his face as his upper body trembles. not from weakness, but restraint. he wants to hide away, feeling discouraged, but he’s afraid to take his eyes off Ivan.]
ACAB
he’s right, but it’s different!!]
…Yeah, well, I didn’t do anything crazy.
[nevermind that Ivan probably had to; had to do something more grabbing than a cop-out forfeit to take the attention off Till. he can’t make Ivan understand how batshit traumatizing it was, but he supposes there’s no real point. he feels a little better having smacked Ivan for it, which is counter-intuitive to how he doesn’t want Ivan to leave him alone. he’s—scared, kind of. more than he is relieved.
Ivan had made good TV, though—they broadcasted his face in max resolution behind Till as he struggled to perform. but going so far as to say something so venomous would be pointlessly punishing to Ivan.
all Till can really do, he guess, is process that Ivan’s hear. the lower half of his face is obscured by his arms, but he stares over them to Ivan, tears streaming down his face as his upper body trembles. not from weakness, but restraint. he wants to hide away, feeling discouraged, but he’s afraid to take his eyes off Ivan.]