[ it’s such a visceral “no” that rips its way out of till’s mouth that ivan might have paused even if it wasn’t till demanding it.
it takes till saying his name for it all to begin to really sink in— the reality of both this situation and ivan’s situation. till knows it’s him. ivan knows till is… till. ivan did what he did during that round knowing he would never see till again after. that was the end. and now?
ivan doesn’t know what to do with this unexpected continuation to his life. he especially doesn’t know what to do with it when it involves till. so he listens, stands there with till’s trembling hand fisted in his shirt.
don’t go. he doesn’t think he’s ever heard till say that before. or anyone.
if till had told him “don’t go” back then, would ivan had listened? ha. not that it would have mattered, or would have ever happened.
he tries again to support till’s body as he heaves and gasps for breath. ]
….the tummy ache……..😔
it takes till saying his name for it all to begin to really sink in— the reality of both this situation and ivan’s situation. till knows it’s him. ivan knows till is… till. ivan did what he did during that round knowing he would never see till again after. that was the end. and now?
ivan doesn’t know what to do with this unexpected continuation to his life. he especially doesn’t know what to do with it when it involves till. so he listens, stands there with till’s trembling hand fisted in his shirt.
don’t go. he doesn’t think he’s ever heard till say that before. or anyone.
if till had told him “don’t go” back then, would ivan had listened? ha. not that it would have mattered, or would have ever happened.
he tries again to support till’s body as he heaves and gasps for breath. ]