[and james would casually just keep his arm in there anyway--]

Yeah, well. If this is some joke, I'm waiting for the punchline. I just got finished with...

[How does one even encapsulate in words what he went through? Does he even want to? He doesn't really know this man, but he doesn't know anyone here. (He thinks.)]

...a really difficult situation. I was hoping for a break.

[He doesn't truly believe that, though. He doesn't deserve anything like it. Maybe this—whatever it is—makes sense for James Sunderland, and he should just resign himself to it.]